Pensées Sentimentales

there’s no phrase that can attest
how one could change amidst a mess,
how one word can turn things right,
and hope everything to be bright

such an irony this phrase brings
how kanye west & taylor swift sings

amidst the crying and swelling of tears,
not even the comfort of someone dear
that will bring change in saying,
‘i forgive and everything will be all right’

it’s truly an irony,
no matter how much heart u pour

things don’t change immediately,
routine ways? - honestly!
there’s no better feeling how one must feel,
the faith you bring it just kills away..

who You are to me?
i recall those words amidst
these crisis i want to dismiss :(
my very thoughts conceal from them
yet in my heart You see through me.

who You are to me?
i try to hide such pain, tears and agony
place a fascade to everybody,
cover my eyes, shunning my face away
thy secrets - low and behold
alas, the transparency in me You see

over and over, i ask this question
over and over, i eat it in digestion
who You, Jehovah, are to me?
how come my errors can't be covered before You?

i try to look for comfort in You,
i try to throw my burdens to You,
i want You to be my confidant, my Friend,
dumbfounded my heart keeps asking,
'who You really are to me?'


[12.Feb2010]

It took me a second to realize how much I'm missing you

We really have missed a million days,

our hi and hellos are limited to months or years?

The daily connection is no longer there,

how i miss our adventures everywhere.

Our girly talks - makeup and the like

The many problems, so similar,

we'd cover each others backs.

I remember those days we'd set our goals and dreams

A cafe, a resturant, what more can i say?

Those were good memories of yester years

I reminisced those days, when you are just a call away.

My life suddenly went blank.

And I felt alone for some time.

I yearn for your presence,

on a cup of coffee we'd talk.

My life became a mess

And you were on top of my list.

I wanted to write you

with no address in mind..

I wanted to call you,

it seemed you're busy

That I gave up with a sigh..

Chatting with you online,

Seeing you smile via webcam

I wanted to tell you many things -

.. just so you know, it still feels empty.

[04.Dec.2009]